One of my chat board friends started a thread today about being
prepared for baby.. where you stand right now, kind of question. And for it, I
had two responses..
Re. work
-
I take ONE day off and all hell breaks loose :( They
aren't detail oriented and don't dive into the level of work that I do to get a
job done right.. When I was off for 2 weeks because I got married, I was
dealing with residual issued for 3 MONTHS afterwards... I'm QUITE nervous about
taking 3 MONTHS off.
What I refuse to do is be "on
call" for them if they need help.. either you get a schedule worked out
for me to be available or you leave me alone COMPLETELY. I'm head of
Quality and he's wanting our only HR rep to do my job.. she's begged and
pleaded with him (the boss) to hire someone because she it straight up telling
him she can't do it. But he refuses..
This is going to get VERY messy.
Re. personal
feelings -
With each day that passes, I have a greater and greater
feeling that Austin will be here in April.. so I'm lurking more here (not that
I didn't already). :)
I'm pretty much a roll with it kind
of girl.. and with this little man, that hasn't changed. I suppose that I'll be
as ready as I'm going to be with what time and resources I have.
We have diapers and a car seat to
bring him home as well as a couple bottles of formula in the event that I can't
BF at first.. with that in mind, everything else, DH could go get.. but we
already have clothes and body wash and towels etc.
I'm not terribly concerned about
the things on my registry since we could go without them and improvise if
we didn't have them and he came..
So.. to answer the OP question,
other than work which I can't control their inability to be ready, I'm feeling
very at peace right now. Ready for baby.. ready for labor.. ready for a new
chapter in my life to begin. :)
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Friday night was a big "blow
up" night in our home.. I was telling a good friend of mine that it was
one of those, I'm so angry I can't even yell! type moments. I'm really hoping
it cleared some things up between DH and I.. And honestly, I'm ready to get
back on anti-depressants. It's been REALLY rough. :(
Last night was an AWESOME time in
Lawrence for a girlfriend's bridal shower.. but the events of the night started
when I was on my way home. My back started pulsing – again. Like 2 weeks ago
when I woke up in the middle of the night with contractions. So I drove a
little faster.. then my front started spasming.. it never got tight or hard like
a contraction would make it.. but it was pinging.. That’s about the only word I
can use to describe it. Odd, I know.. so being an hour away from home scared me
cuz I didn’t know what to expect. By the time I made it home, I was hurting
pretty bad. I called down to DH to let him know I was home and just a slap in
the face, I realized what I was feeling was the same back pain I had with DD
the night before she was born. I immediately jumped into the shower and let the
hot water just flow over my back to relax my muscles. I could feel Austin
moving around quite a bit, too.. so I’m not sure if it was something he was
doing that was making all this happen or if all this happening was making him
move but there was a LOT of activity.
About 35 minutes after I got into
the shower, I decided I was feeling better and it was ok to get out and into
bed. I called my mom to let her know what was going on and it was about that
time DH came upstairs.. I didn’t think the bug him about it just because I knew
it was probably nothing. But he heard
the phone conversation and was like.. “What’s going on??” so I let mom go to
tell him. Mom says I should call the Dr if it starts back up again, even
remotely.. but so far today, nothing. I felt like I had just run a marathon
after that incident last night was over so I crashed pretty fast – and that’s
what happened with DD, 10 years ago. It wore me out!! Not sure what exactly was happening but am
VERY glad it’s over!
Aside from all that, I was up ALL
night with acid reflux.. I finally went to the garage to get the Tums from my
purse at 3am (that was in my SUV lol) but even they didn't help any. Plus
with all the tinkling I had to do, last night was just plan ‘ol shot to hell. Lol..
Today I’m in bed, taking it easy..
DD went with my mom last night to hang out so I’ll pick her up later today. But
other than that, just taking it easy! :)
